shopping in hell

i finally went to buy a dress for Evie's wedding. I am demoralized, negated and misreable. The biggest stores had two dresses in my size at the most. and they were so ugly. i drove home crying. I know I know, fat is fat. but seriously, why? more women are over size 14 then under it in this country, and yet there are row after row of size 6. two dresses, one at macy's!!! Macys!!!! I feel like hiding for a while. But of course, that is not an option.

this is the blog that will document the last two years of a long marriage which will end on June 6 2011. I know it will end, because I have a plan. and that plan is my freedom and my sanity.